Ashelectric

   I Haven't been on it a while. Been reaallllyyyy busy! Hope everyone is doing well! Much love!  

So, here we are at Christmas. I am still torn up about the break up, but not as much. Yesterday was probably the worst of it all. As the day tore on, I got worse and worse, literally, the bad feelings weren't letting up, the pain and sadness were so overwhelming that I snapped at my family and didn't want to spend any time with anyone. I took some nyquil and went to bed around 10. Today, is Christmas. I woke up because my phone was going off around 7 from all the damn texts everyone was sending me. But it was alright. I went out into the living room where my mother was, once my father and sister woke up we opened our presents from one

Congratulations to me. I have succeeded in losing a lot of things the past couple of weeks, including my money, my house, my boyfriend and myself.. One positive thing that I have lost, is weight. I am down 18 lbs. My clothes are beginning to fit differently. I hope that people can see a real difference soon. I am a lot bigger than most people, or at least, I think so. I want to at least be average. Well, I mean, I haven't really been eating a lot anyhow, since... I can't really. So that has contributed to the cause. Before the break up, I was down 12 pounds. One thing I can look forward to, is losing more weight. I mean, that's